The heart does not desire
Gone is the fire
The fire that only burned me
Didn’t add to my destiny
The emptiness is fading again
My self is replacing the pain
Why when I give my all
They don’t understand and stage the fall
They say they want me but where is the effort
Their negligence of my peace only themselves they assert
It’s okay though I am okay now
Or I feel I will be soon
I don’t care if they are okay now
Their mark on my heart will fade away soon
Very soon!
What's an another wound to this wounded heart. Another bridge burnt, another dead end, another start.
The chest feeling heavy, the lump in the throat, the panic,
The fight or flight, the cortisol pumping, the obsession satanic.
Why you must wander off so far?
Why you must give your heart another scar?
Why when you know, they know, how much care you show
Why when you know, they take you for granted, with nothing to bestow
Why dim the light you are,
Why kill the light you are,
Why burn the boats for someone not ready to take,
What you offer is a gift but they think accepting it is a mistake.
Close the chapter, while you can
Move on from this excruciating pain, while you can
Soon it'll be too late, soon a rope and a fan
Soon you'll think, you were not enough of a man
Walk away,
or only despair it would be,
Walk away,
from the agony, the misery
Walk away,
burn the bridges, burn the boats,
Walk away,
Be free,
whoever you were meant to be,
who you were meant to be,
you KNOW who you are meant to be...
What's an another wound to this wounded heart. Another bridge burnt, another dead end, another start.
The chest feeling heavy, the lump in the throat, the panic,
The fight or flight, the cortisol pumping, the obsession satanic.
Why you must wander off so far?
Why you must give your heart another scar?
Why when you know, they know, how much care you show
Why when you know, they take you for granted, with nothing to bestow
Why dim the light you are,
Why kill the light you are,
Why burn the boats for someone not ready to take,
What you offer is a gift but they think accepting it is a mistake.
Close the chapter, while you can
Move on from this excruciating pain, while you can
Soon it'll be too late, soon a rope and a fan
Soon you'll think, you were not enough of a man
Walk away,
or only despair it would be,
Walk away,
from the agony, the misery
Walk away,
burn the bridges, burn the boats,
Walk away,
Be free,
whoever you were meant to be,
who you were meant to be,
you KNOW who you are meant to be...
Whenever you disappear
It kills me baby
With all the love I have to give to you
Who should I give it to?
If not you?
Waiting for your voice
Waiting to see your pretty face
Every hour feels like an year
Why you must disappear?
Everyone loves differently
I love you so intensely
But for me the connection is everything
The silence is a pain not like anything
If only you can stay near me
The random calls, your face surprising me
I feel so happy when you are with me
I enjoy my world I feel your love in me
I am happy now that you understand
You promise that with me you’ll stand
I trust you baby I trust your promise
I will be with you soon and in the candle light we will kiss
You loved my gifts and I am so happy
But my biggest gift is to give you my heart
Will you take care of it with all your heart?
To love someone is to give them the power to hurt
Without giving your heart is it really love?
To love someone is to change yourself to love them more
To change for better, to trust them more
Baby I will never break your heart,
But I can make mistakes I am not perfect
I know you trust me with your heart
I will take care of it and I try to not make you upset
I love only you I promise my Queen
I’m your king I know that is what you mean
I gave up hope for ever finding love
I built all those walls to forget all that pain
Someone I trusted gave me so much pain
I trusted them and they fucked my peace again and again
For 7 years I never tried to love again
Then I found you and felt like a child again
Full of warmth and that warm red feeling again
My baby, with with you I feel complete me again
I know you trusted someone with all your heart too
I know they cause you so much pain too
I pray that he may rot in hell
They did not treat my queen well
I see your scars the wounds on your soul
Baby I am with you I am here to heal your soul
My baby, my heart, my pretty soul
I know my love is beautiful and In your life I will play a beautiful role
I feel it funny that on the dating app
I was checking if you were online again
And seeing you online made my heart stop
I prayed that you find no one that can love you like me
I was sad and angry and I was broken believe me
And you saw me coming online again and again
I saw you cry and saw your pain
I felt at peace that you were checking me too
I felt that it caused you great pain too
Baby I promise I only love one and that is you
If we ever drifted apart
I will not care for love again
I will endure the pain again
I know I will heal again
But I will never forget you
And I will stay mad at you
Why would you ever leave me?
Why would you promise to be mine and still leave me?
You promised that I am your second love
I know and trust your promises are true
I know your dad is your first love
and I am very lucky to be the second, loved by you
Now enough sad words, let's do the happy talk
Now I only want to tell you the beautiful path we will walk
InShaAllah we will hold hands and do every deep talk
We will light some candles put some roses and even when looking at each other’s eyes, in the silence our hearts will talk
They will be happy and will make a million happy promises
And we will grow old together and keep our promises
I am so happy that you trust me so much
I am so happy that you talked to your mother
I am so happy that she liked me so much
And now that she likes me she is also my mother
My sisters are your sister too they love you
Your family is my family I know they love me too
I will visit you and then the distances will be no more
We will walk on those nearby shores
We will walk in that forest near your home
The night will be young and the wind will sing our songs
The moon will be smiling and God will forgive our wrongs
I love when you show me your world baby
I imagine I am with you living in your world baby
When we talk I forget all the distances
I feel like you are sitting next to me
So close we can smell each other’s scents of body
I can’t wait to see you in person
I can’t wait to smell your sweet smell in person
I can’t wait to touch your sweet lips in person
I can’t wait to hug you in person
I can’t wait to have a romantic dinner with you in person
I can’t wait to go on long drives with you in person
I can’t wait to smell that sweet smell of rain with you in person
Trust me baby I can’t wait to be with you in person
Will you wait for me to be with you baby?
Will you stay mine forever and ever baby?
Nothing will give me more happiness to be with you baby
I will fight the world for you my baby
I will break the finger anyone points at you baby
I will work hard to give you the best life baby
Everything I have is yours baby
And everything I dream about is a life with you baby
I don’t care about your past baby
But I will always listen to your pain
Whenever you want to tell me again
I only care who you are now
But if you think you can leave me anytime
I ask you please to just leave me now
I like the love you have for me now
Do you promise you will keep loving me like now?
I also have a lot of painful memories
Because of the people who didn’t understand my love
They also promised me their forever love
But when they wanted they left me and lied about their love
I want to tell you all my sad stories
I will tell you when it is time
I only want one promise that you will stay with me till the end of time
RuRu, always remember that when two souls love each other fully
There is no force in the world that can stop them from being together
As long as they fight everything to stay together
It doesn’t matter how sad is the weather
They never give up they stay together
Will you fight for me to stay together?
Will you promise me to stay together?
Will you promise me a life together?
Will you promise to have little RuRus together?
Will you promise me to be my soft feather?
I know my love is very special
Will you let me love you and make you feel special?
I know you love me and I know the answer of all these questions is Yes!
I know I don’t have to second guess!
And When we lie in our warm bed
Your beautiful hair I will caress
A kiss on your beautiful big full of warmth eyes
A kiss on your head my little baby red
A kiss on your nose to make you feel close
A kiss on your cheeks to make them red
A kiss on your lips to make you feel loved
A kiss for you now and a kiss for you forever!
The Caged sun Lovers on the run
The heat of the desert
The distance sucking out all the fun
They started only yesterday
What’s it compared to the eternity
Did they know each other before?
When the souls were free and danced in the heavens?
Before time and hunger, before the worries?
Did they use to look at each other across the infinity?
Their locked eyes warping the time and space around them?
Did their souls spoke without having them say a single world?
Did their frequencies merged into a beautiful song?
Did they become one and their individuality was done?
Did they watch the creation of Sun and Moon together?
I believe it was so
So long long ago
But now they wander
In this material plane
Just a faint memory of yonder
In this existence full of pain
Is this simulated existence testing them again?
Will they remember who they used to be?
Before they chose to descend?
One after another?
Will they have faith and endure?
Will they?
Will they?
Will they?
