Longing

 Whenever you disappear 

It kills me baby

With all the love I have to give to you

Who should I give it to?

If not you?

Waiting for your voice

Waiting to see your pretty face

Every hour feels like an year

Why you must disappear?

Everyone loves differently

I love you so intensely

But for me the connection is everything 

The silence is a pain not like anything

If only you can stay near me

The random calls, your face surprising me

I feel so happy when you are with me

I enjoy my world I feel your love in me

I am happy now that you understand

You promise that with me you’ll stand

I trust you baby I trust your promise

I will be with you soon and in the candle light we will kiss

You loved my gifts and I am so happy

But my biggest gift is to give you my heart

Will you take care of it with all your heart?

To love someone is to give them the power to hurt

Without giving your heart is it really love?

To love someone is to change yourself to love them more

To change for better, to trust them more

Baby I will never break your heart, 

But I can make mistakes I am not perfect

I know you trust me with your heart

I will take care of it and I try to not make you upset

I love only you I promise my Queen

I’m your king I know that is what you mean

I gave up hope for ever finding love

I built all those walls to forget all that pain

Someone I trusted gave me so much pain

I trusted them and they fucked my peace again and again 

For 7 years I never tried to love again 

Then I found you and felt like a child again 

Full of warmth and that warm red feeling again 

My baby, with with you I feel complete me again

I know you trusted someone with all your heart too

I know they cause you so much pain too

I pray that he may rot in hell

They did not treat my queen well

I see your scars the wounds on your soul

Baby I am with you I am here to heal your soul

My baby, my heart, my pretty soul

I know my love is beautiful and In your life I will play a beautiful role

I feel it funny that on the dating app

I was checking if you were online again 

And seeing you online made my heart stop

I prayed that you find no one that can love you like me

I was sad and angry and I was broken believe me

And you saw me coming online again and again 

I saw you cry and saw your pain

I felt at peace that you were checking me too

I felt that it caused you great pain too

Baby I promise I only love one and that is you

If we ever drifted apart

I will not care for love again 

I will endure the pain again 

I know I will heal again 

But I will never forget you

And I will stay mad at you

Why would you ever leave me?

Why would you promise to be mine and still leave me?

You promised that I am your second love

I know and trust your promises are true

I know your dad is your first love 

and I am very lucky to be the second, loved by you

Now enough sad words, let's do the happy talk

Now I only want to tell you the beautiful path we will walk

InShaAllah we will hold hands and do every deep talk

We will light some candles put some roses and even when looking at each other’s eyes, in the silence our hearts will talk

They will be happy and will make a million happy promises

And we will grow old together and keep our promises 

I am so happy that you trust me so much

I am so happy that you talked to your mother

I am so happy that she liked me so much

And now that she likes me she is also my mother

My sisters are your sister too they love you 

Your family is my family I know they love me too

I will visit you and then the distances will be no more

We will walk on those nearby shores

We will walk in that forest near your home

The night will be young and the wind will sing our songs

The moon will be smiling and God will forgive our wrongs

I love when you show me your world baby

I imagine I am with you living in your world baby

When we talk I forget all the distances

I feel like you are sitting next to me

So close we can smell each other’s scents of body

I can’t wait to see you in person

I can’t wait to smell your sweet smell in person

I can’t wait to touch your sweet lips in person 

I can’t wait to hug you in person

I can’t wait to have a romantic dinner with you in person

I can’t wait to go on long drives with you in person

I can’t wait to smell that sweet smell of rain with you in person

Trust me baby I can’t wait to be with you in person

Will you wait for me to be with you baby?

Will you stay mine forever and ever baby?

Nothing will give me more happiness to be with you baby

I will fight the world for you my baby

I will break the finger anyone points at you baby

I will work hard to give you the best life baby

Everything I have is yours baby

And everything I dream about is a life with you baby

I don’t care about your past baby

But I will always listen to your pain

Whenever you want to tell me again

I only care who you are now

But if you think you can leave me anytime 

I ask you please to just leave me now

I like the love you have for me now

Do you promise you will keep loving me like now?

I also have a lot of painful memories 

Because of the people who didn’t understand my love 

They also promised me their forever love

But when they wanted they left me and lied about their love

I want to tell you all my sad stories

I will tell you when it is time

I only want one promise that you will stay with me till the end of time

RuRu, always remember that when two souls love each other fully

There is no force in the world that can stop them from being together 

As long as they fight everything to stay together 

It doesn’t matter how sad is the weather 

They never give up they stay together 

Will you fight for me to stay together?

Will you promise me to stay together?

Will you promise me a life together?

Will you promise to have little RuRus together?

Will you promise me to be my soft feather?

I know my love is very special 

Will you let me love you and make you feel special?

I know you love me and I know the answer of all these questions is Yes!

I know I don’t have to second guess!

And When we lie in our warm bed

Your beautiful hair I will caress

A kiss on your beautiful big full of warmth eyes

A kiss on your head my little baby red

A kiss on your nose to make you feel close

A kiss on your cheeks to make them red

A kiss on your lips to make you feel loved

A kiss for you now and a kiss for you forever!

The Caged Sun

The Caged sun Lovers on the run

The heat of the desert

The distance sucking out all the fun

They started only yesterday 

What’s it compared to the eternity 

Did they know each other before?

When the souls were free and danced in the heavens?

Before time and hunger, before the worries?

Did they use to look at each other across the infinity?

Their locked eyes warping the time and space around them?

Did their souls spoke without having them say a single world?

Did their frequencies merged into a beautiful song?

Did they become one and their individuality was done?

Did they watch the creation of Sun and Moon together?

I believe it was so

So long long ago

But now they wander

In this material plane

Just a faint memory of yonder

In this existence full of pain

Is this simulated existence testing them again?

Will they remember who they used to be?

Before they chose to descend?

One after another?

Will they have faith and endure?

Will they?

Will they?

Will they?

Heal

I see your pain I see your scars All those internal wars

I see your broken heart

Looking for love for a jumpstart 

You are not alone I feel the same

We overthink and ourselves we blame

But is it love to be left to rot

Be treated like an afterthought 

Is it time to move on?

I think it is

Is it time to let go?

I think it is

The more we push

The more they ignore 

The more we long for a connection 

The more the distance the disconnection 

Let em go let’s fuck em all

Let’s build all the fuckin walls

Lets heal ourselves 

They’ll rot themselves 

We will find love again 

There will be no pain 

Let’s get off this train

Let’s heal again

Red Shore

I found a butterfly red, sleeping in her garden bed My beautiful red butterfly My RuRu, why you cry?

Trust the love,

The love will heal,

Your love will heal,

My love will heal,

I know how deeply you feel

The time to love is now,

The time to not let go, is now

Love me with all your soul, 

Join my soul and make us whole.

My little RuRu, my red queen 

Our hands will touch, nothing between.

Our bodies will touch, nothing between.

Our lips will touch, nothing between.

Our souls will touch, nothing between.

Be happy! for my love is pure

It lights your heart, darkness no more

We will be together, that I'm sure

Till we die and meet in heavens,

on a RED shore ❤️

My Child

You found a light that was so bright It blinded you, you lost your sight You let your emotions run wild Be patient, be patient my child!

The light turned off, let the darkness begin

The trance is broken, and the emptiness within

Empty is the garden, barren, dark red tiled

Be patient, be patient my child!

You long for it, you are in love, where is the light?

You throw everything aside,

you open your heart wide

Is it another test? Only time will tell, don’t let the sorrows dwell

Your love is pure, your heart is pure

Your soul is pure, your whole is pure

Trust in fate, the rest is noise

The rose may wither or grow to skies

Rest your soul, only doubts you have piled?

It’s been a while, since you smiled.

Be patient my child,

Be patient my child…